she who has been: in and out of sickness

When: Jan 05 / Thur / 09: 03AM

Where: work / while working :D

What: chill

travel medkit that i usually bring

I came home early. Then after I did my laundry, I try to do meditation :D

I sat on my bed and planted my back on the wall. When I went too calm and felt sleepy, I laid down with my back still planted on the wall. After an hour or two I started to get chill. As in I felt really cold. I have to cover myself from head to toe with a not-so-thick blanket. When my teeth started chattering, I started dressing up [I sleep on my birthday suit :D ]. I put on my pajama top, jogging pants and socks. I even wore stockings on my hands and arms [since I didn’t have gloves].  Then after a few more minutes and I was still shaking I decided to take medicine then sent a message to my shift manager saying that I might not get to work the next day though I’ll still try. I even put Salonpas and efficascent oil on my back because it ached badly.

I can’t remember what time was it when I started to feel warm again. I just woke up, started undressing myself and turning my fan on.   

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she who has been: weeping

When: Jan 04 / Wed / 1:51AM

Where: Apartment

What: Candle

I woke up at 12:30AM today since I slept at 4 or so yesterday because I wasn’t able to sleep well last night and been suffering from headache the whole morning. When I checked my phone, I received a discount deal which I immediately deleted, an invitation from a friend to go on a weekend-camp on the 21st, an inquiry message from my second sister and a creepy message from my fourth sister.

She said her baby was gone. I asked for an explanation then by this time, she told me that her one-year old baby, my second niece, was truly gone. She was supposed to leave the hospital tomorrow and my mom was already looking for a hospital that can do her heart operation since the hospital she was in has machine for adults, didn’t make it.



green scented candle and a cloth-made rose



She said Khailee was admitted on Jan 1st because her breathing was labored and seemed not well. The day before, she was playing with one of my mom’s medicine bottles. Mom told my sister, Russel to bring her to the hospital; she might accidentally drink the medicine. The hospital doctors did an X-ray and found out that she had a big heart. Mom went home and cooked food since it’s also her birthday.

The message was received last night. She might sent as the message as a group. Honestly, I think she could have made it if mom acts swiftly. She might have delayed it and thought that it was not that serious. The hospital would definitely have given them list of hospital that could have gone the surgery fast. It could have been money. Mom might not have enough and delayed the process. Or they didn’t know that she’ll have an attack or something.

Her mom was lost before she came. She didn’t finish high school and no direction. After years, she came home pregnant on her. She was her mom’s light. Now, we don’t know what might happen to her

There’s many “it could have been..” but now, she’s already gone. Her mom cries. I cry. Our whole family is crying. And we will cry for the rest of our lives because of her. We might have our nieces, might have a nephew and I might have a child on my own but SHE would be especial. She’s a happy child. That’s one thing I’m sure of.

I lighted a green (calm) candle (light) to guide her way and a single (she’s 1 year old) plastic (forever and would never whither) rose beside (her mom, who always watch over her) it.

For Khailee:

May your light always be soft and warm forever.

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she who has been: doing her laundry

When: Jan 03 / Tues / 03:00PM

Where: Apartment, just got home

What: Laundry

I just picked up my laundry before getting in. It’s cloudy outside and might rain early tonight or early tomorrow. I’ll do my undergarments later, maybe after I took a nap and dinner :D

Anyhow, I decided to write and try to post it the next day as much as possible. I’ll start today but the pictures might be late since my reader is not working. I’ll buy a new one before Friday so I could post these articles before the weekend :D

Update:
It’s already raining :D


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she who has been: reading

Where: Apartment; right after I got in

What: Books

the master key system, the power, the secret and the secret scroll

These are the books that I’ll be reading for the next few days. I bought The Secret and The Power early this year, The Secret Scroll was a gift from my girl friend Irish and I just bought The Master Key System today at Shangrila.

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She who has been writing..

 ..many nonsense things for two years.

Good Morning.


I’m writing this at 6:54AM in my apartment on this day; Jan 1st 2012.
This will be my first entry for this year. My goal is this, I’ll be taking pictures and/or write entries daily then post them weekly since I’m pretty much busy but I can find time on weekend or anytime I’m available.







> What IS this?
This will be my 365 project! Yeheeey!!!

> What would be the theme?
As usual, anything that fancy me. It could be something that I just seen on the streets, or something that I notice or something that came up suddenly.

> Why AM I doing it?
Well, since my so-called blog has no real sense of direction, it would be a journal of a any normal human with a normal life and how things unfold in front of her/him.
Also, I'm trying in anyway possible hone my photography. I want it to have purpose :D

> Why should I read it?
I don’t know. I’m merely doing it for myself :D To make me happy I guess :D If you find it interesting then good. Keep reading and leave a comment too if you have time :D

> What should I expect from this site?
Haist! Redundancy?! Expect the unexpected, I guess. Hmm again, this blog is only to entertain myself. There are so many blogs written for others and maybe some, like this one, for themselves too but really, this is only for me, myself and SWHB. Hopefully, it could reflect and see your views, ideas or whatever.

> If its nonsense, why do it? It’s bullshit!
DUH! I know. That’s why I’m doing it and if you’ll continue reading, it means you like reading bullshits, so cut the redundancy and slamming the obvious.


Anyhow, all the pictures here are MINE!!!
I may not be able to watermark all of them but THEY ARE MINE! Fuck head!

I’m territorial and this site is my virtual territory so everything in here is mine. For the pictures that I might post but aren’t mine, I usually link them to the source. Please be dissent enough to email me or link this site when you use any of my entries or pictures.

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