When: Jan 08 / Sun / 6:20AM
Where: mom's house, at kylie's wake
What:
... pictures but unfortunately, didn't have a card reader.
I'm home, for the wake. I arrived at 11:30 last night. I'm thinking of not going to attend the mass because it would be at 1PM and will be entombed at 3PM.
Anyhow, I'm updating this site, downloading meditation videos, checking facebook. People outside are chatting and it rained and might rain some more this morning. I love the rain especially in the morning.
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Sunday, January 8, 2012
she who has been: feeling heavy
When: Jan 07. / Sat
Where: Apartment
>> How are you feeling?
I’m feeling heavy.
I’m learning, doing and patiently practicing how to properly meditate; to control my thoughts, to control my physical body, making my mind stronger than my body, to listen to my subconscious mind and know what I truly feel and desire.
First, I think I made a wrong decision of not going home and attend Kylies’s wake. Until this morning, I feel like going but didn’t. I think and feel that I should have and I think and I feel now that mom might be very angry when I come home tonight. Well I hope she understands, cross fingers. So there, I’ll come home tonight.
Where: Apartment
>> How are you feeling?
I’m feeling heavy.
I’m learning, doing and patiently practicing how to properly meditate; to control my thoughts, to control my physical body, making my mind stronger than my body, to listen to my subconscious mind and know what I truly feel and desire.
First, I think I made a wrong decision of not going home and attend Kylies’s wake. Until this morning, I feel like going but didn’t. I think and feel that I should have and I think and I feel now that mom might be very angry when I come home tonight. Well I hope she understands, cross fingers. So there, I’ll come home tonight.
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| taken from the cover of my meditation cd |
Decided!
Second, I desire and have wanted to receive money. Lots of money. I asked, strongly I believed. I try to believe and try to feel received but through my constant trials, learning and practicing meditation I found out that I doubt. Hugely!
I saw it in my inner thoughts. It’s hard and made of steel. I try to burn it but I subconsciously throw water on it but the fire is still there. Burning under it. I still have hope that I’ll burn “DOUBT” and learn to believe to what I’m capable of.
Acknowledgement and Acceptance
Thank you.
Thank you.
She who has been: reading messages
When: Jan 06 / Fri / 3:10PM
Alaina is missing Kylie already. She was trying to wake her up to play.
Alaina is my three-year old niece and a playmate to my 1-year old niece, Kylie.
PS:
I accidentally erased my first two shots for the laundry and books. Anyhow, I decided to take the two pictures of it again. They are as similar as the original.
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Where: apartment / while exchanging messages with my sis, chiRie
What: message
... for her project.
Also, above is the picture of the message my sister, Chile sent me yesterday afternoon. It says:
Alaina is my three-year old niece and a playmate to my 1-year old niece, Kylie.
PS:
I accidentally erased my first two shots for the laundry and books. Anyhow, I decided to take the two pictures of it again. They are as similar as the original.
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She who has been: choosing
When: Jan 6th
Where: apartment, thinking
What: scripture
.. which Bible scripture is suited for Kylie.
The picture was taken from Ecclesiastes Chapter III: It says;
3:1 To every [thing there is] a season, and a time to every
purpose under the heaven:
3:2 A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a
time to pluck up [that which is] planted;
3:3 A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down,
and a time to build up;
3:4 A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a
time to dance;
3:5 A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones; a
time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
3:6 A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a
time to cast away;
3:7 A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence,
and a time to speak;
3:8 A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a
time of peace.
3:9 What profit hath he that worketh in that in which he
laboreth?
3:10 I have seen the labor, which God hath given to the sons of
men to be exercised in it.
3:11 He hath made every [thing] beautiful in its time: also he
hath set the world in their heart, so that no man can find out
the work that God maketh from the beginning to the end.
3:12 I know that [there is] no good in them, but for [a man] to
rejoice, and to do good in his life.
3:13 And also that every man should eat and drink, and enjoy the
good of all his labor, it [is] the gift of God.
3:14 I know that, whatever God doeth, it shall be for ever:
nothing can be added to it, nor any thing taken from it: and
God doeth [it], that [men] should fear before him.
3:15 That which hath been is now; and that which is to be hath
already been; and God requireth that which is past.
3:16 And moreover I saw under the sun the place of judgment,
[that] wickedness [was] there; and the place of righteousness,
[that] iniquity [was] there.
3:17 I said in my heart, God will judge the righteous and the
wicked: for [there is] a time there for every purpose and for
every work.
3:18 I said in my heart concerning the state of the sons of men,
that God might manifest them, and that they might see that they
themselves are beasts.
3:19 For that which befalleth the sons of men befalleth beasts;
even one thing befalleth them: as the one dieth, so dieth the
other; yes, they have all one breath; so that a man hath no
pre-eminence above a beast: for all [is] vanity.
3:20 All go to one place; all are of the dust, and all turn to
dust again.
3:21 Who knoweth the spirit of man that goeth upward, and the
spirit of the beast that goeth downward to the earth?
3:22 Wherefore I perceive that [there is] nothing better, than
that a man should rejoice in his own works; for that [is] his
portion: for who shall bring him to see what shall be after
him?
There is indeed A TIME FOR EVERYTHING..
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Where: apartment, thinking
What: scripture
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| the book i've been hiding and a crucifix gifted to me by Mhinnie |
.. which Bible scripture is suited for Kylie.
The picture was taken from Ecclesiastes Chapter III: It says;
3:1 To every [thing there is] a season, and a time to every
purpose under the heaven:
3:2 A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a
time to pluck up [that which is] planted;
3:3 A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down,
and a time to build up;
3:4 A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a
time to dance;
3:5 A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones; a
time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
3:6 A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a
time to cast away;
3:7 A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence,
and a time to speak;
3:8 A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a
time of peace.
3:9 What profit hath he that worketh in that in which he
laboreth?
3:10 I have seen the labor, which God hath given to the sons of
men to be exercised in it.
3:11 He hath made every [thing] beautiful in its time: also he
hath set the world in their heart, so that no man can find out
the work that God maketh from the beginning to the end.
3:12 I know that [there is] no good in them, but for [a man] to
rejoice, and to do good in his life.
3:13 And also that every man should eat and drink, and enjoy the
good of all his labor, it [is] the gift of God.
3:14 I know that, whatever God doeth, it shall be for ever:
nothing can be added to it, nor any thing taken from it: and
God doeth [it], that [men] should fear before him.
3:15 That which hath been is now; and that which is to be hath
already been; and God requireth that which is past.
3:16 And moreover I saw under the sun the place of judgment,
[that] wickedness [was] there; and the place of righteousness,
[that] iniquity [was] there.
3:17 I said in my heart, God will judge the righteous and the
wicked: for [there is] a time there for every purpose and for
every work.
3:18 I said in my heart concerning the state of the sons of men,
that God might manifest them, and that they might see that they
themselves are beasts.
3:19 For that which befalleth the sons of men befalleth beasts;
even one thing befalleth them: as the one dieth, so dieth the
other; yes, they have all one breath; so that a man hath no
pre-eminence above a beast: for all [is] vanity.
3:20 All go to one place; all are of the dust, and all turn to
dust again.
3:21 Who knoweth the spirit of man that goeth upward, and the
spirit of the beast that goeth downward to the earth?
3:22 Wherefore I perceive that [there is] nothing better, than
that a man should rejoice in his own works; for that [is] his
portion: for who shall bring him to see what shall be after
him?
There is indeed A TIME FOR EVERYTHING..
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She who has been: trying really hard
... to document things
I have been doing this since last year but very inconsistent. I’ll try to be us consistent as possible this year though. I do it on writing, as in I have a pen and cattleya notes to write it down. I’ll try to update this project as early as possible.
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I have been doing this since last year but very inconsistent. I’ll try to be us consistent as possible this year though. I do it on writing, as in I have a pen and cattleya notes to write it down. I’ll try to update this project as early as possible.
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