When: Jan 07. / Sat
Where: Apartment
>> How are you feeling?
I’m feeling heavy.
I’m learning, doing and patiently practicing how to properly meditate; to control my thoughts, to control my physical body, making my mind stronger than my body, to listen to my subconscious mind and know what I truly feel and desire.
First, I think I made a wrong decision of not going home and attend Kylies’s wake. Until this morning, I feel like going but didn’t. I think and feel that I should have and I think and I feel now that mom might be very angry when I come home tonight. Well I hope she understands, cross fingers. So there, I’ll come home tonight.
Where: Apartment
>> How are you feeling?
I’m feeling heavy.
I’m learning, doing and patiently practicing how to properly meditate; to control my thoughts, to control my physical body, making my mind stronger than my body, to listen to my subconscious mind and know what I truly feel and desire.
First, I think I made a wrong decision of not going home and attend Kylies’s wake. Until this morning, I feel like going but didn’t. I think and feel that I should have and I think and I feel now that mom might be very angry when I come home tonight. Well I hope she understands, cross fingers. So there, I’ll come home tonight.
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| taken from the cover of my meditation cd |
Decided!
Second, I desire and have wanted to receive money. Lots of money. I asked, strongly I believed. I try to believe and try to feel received but through my constant trials, learning and practicing meditation I found out that I doubt. Hugely!
I saw it in my inner thoughts. It’s hard and made of steel. I try to burn it but I subconsciously throw water on it but the fire is still there. Burning under it. I still have hope that I’ll burn “DOUBT” and learn to believe to what I’m capable of.
Acknowledgement and Acceptance
Thank you.
Thank you.