she who has been: cooking

When: Jan 23 / Monday

Where: apartment

What: noodles

... since yesterday but for today, I'm cooking spaghetti. When it was done, I added vegetable oil, cheese and salt because I'm hungry and feeling lazy to make a proper sauce.Maybe, later once I'm tired of eating colorless noodles.

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she who has been: thinking

When: Jan 21 / saturday

Where: apartment

What: mess


.. of what to do.


Should I go to mom's or clean these mess. Yeah! my space has been a big mess since last weekend, when I was preparing to go to meet mom and my sis, Aileen before heading to my cousin, Michelle's wedding.

Sigh!

Just looking around my room, I already feel tired. Dang! this would be my longest four days and first after four years of celebrating Lunar new year out of town.

The first time I have known and started to celebrate Lunar New Year, I went to 100 islands with Irish and some of our officemates. The next year, we went to Davao with Mhinnie and Lara. The following year, we did island tripping from Manila - Bohol - Cebu - Palawan before Manila going back to Manila.

This year, Mhinnie, Sally and me were supposed to go to a spring in Laguna but they cancelled it since there deduction from having a very long vacation last month is now hunting them back. My back-up plan, hiking to Mt. Batulao in Batangas was cancelled to because Ming, our trip organizer is now in Boracay.

Yesterday, we [Danny, Nicole and Cher] were planning of either to go to Ocean Park since Danny and I haven't been there or head to 100 islands.

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she who has been: hearing good news today

When: Jan 20 / 14:21KT
Where: office / freetime while talking to wendy

What: good news

Yes! you read it right. I have been hearing many good news today. Let me try to enumerate them but not really in order. It depends on how I remember it:

1. Irish [MSN] told me that Gwen [our office in our previous company] will be leaving to Dubai which Mhinnie confirmed. She will be leaving on the 18th of February.

2. Mhinnie [MSN|] told me that our previous officemate, CJ who is now working for the other company though same business field was promoted.

3. Red [talking earlier] told me where could I buy the best aloe vera plant.

4. Irish [MSN] said she liked the book I gifted to her and bought a copy for her friend. She even told me some tips she got from chapter she just finished.

5. Wendy [talking earlier with Red] told me she'll buy more of the books that I gifted to her last Christmas Since she liked it a lot, she thought of buying books in the same genre.

6. Mhinnie [MSN] told me about the video she watched. It was with Toni Gozaga and Boy Abunda when they wrote their wishes and claimed it.


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she who has been: in this situation

When: Jan 19 / Thursday

Where: apartment

What: health insurance



.. a year or two ago and now, I think I'm in the same situation. Anyways, I'm into it but, sigh! whatever.

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she who has been: receiving messages

When: Jan 18 / Wednesday

Where: apartment

What: message

.. like this and even a phone call on my way home. I already have an idea what this message emplies but
anyhow, they won't get any from me today hahaha

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she who has been: counting

When: Jan 17 / Tuesday

Where: apartment

What: coins

These are the ones I carry in the morning to pay bus and jeepney fare at 3:45 to 4:00 each morning to work.
Just to make sure the drivers wont throw me out of the bus because I'm paying them bills.

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she who has been: writing

When: Jan 16 / Monday

Where: apartment

What: gratitude book

... and counting her blessings.
hahaha

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she who has been: spending time

When: Jan 15 / Sun

Where: in the hotel
What: cousins

with her relatives and it only happens once in a blue moon. Having us complete rarely happen since my uncle and grandfather passed away. We used to spend Christmas in my grandparents every year but well, people are growing and have their own career but as much as possible we try to see them.
 
 
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she who has been: attending weddings

When: Jan 14 / Friday
Where: in the hotel


What: Michelle's wedding
 

 
This is Michelle, my cousin on my father's side, on her wedding day. The picture was taken in the hotel before her official photographers and videographers came in and hauled me out hehehe

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she who has been feeling: nervous

When: Jan 13th / Friday / 05:56 KT
Where: at work

>> How are you feeling?

I don't know. My heart beats very fast as if I'm nervous but what I know is, I'm anticipating something. I know that something is happening or would happen. I'll access it more later. Anyhow, Jaycee will be going to Singapore next month. I envy her, yes because I also want to travel but I am also happy for her because she 

deserves it. The girl has been working hard to support her two younger brothers and supporting her MA. I also salute her because she'd been working really really hard to get all her dreams. Like me, she's also addicted to working. After leaving her part time job for less than two weeks, so jumped to another part time that starts at 3:00 PM.

Now, I missed having a part time job. I'll have one once I moved to my new crib and settle. Dang! I'm excited again hahaha after remembering it. Anyways, I really hope that everything Jaycee wanted would come to her. Again, the girl deserves it.

Thank you. 

she who has been: trying to meditate

When: Jan 13 / Friday / 5:47 KT
Where: work / free time

What: time

.. at this time of the morning.

Again, I adjusted my waking time just for this one. Before I bathe at 3 - 3:15 in the morning and leave
at 3:45 to be at work before 4:20AM but since I started doing meditation in the work, I'm more calm
and concentrated after bathing and cleaned :D, I have to start at 2:30 AM so I have time for this.

I try to also to do it in the after, around 3PM and 6PM. So, far I'm not progressing [BANG!] from my
last progressed but that's without trying. I'll keep on doing it, watch the meditation videos that I downloaded
on YouTube and read my books more, until it sink into my very bones, maybe up to the bone marrow!
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she who has been: hungry

When: Jan 12 / Thurs / 12:30 AM
Where: apartment

What: breakfast

... since she woke up.

I slept at around 3-3:3PM while reading books and I woke up at around 10 in the evening,
I tried to sleep again since I was scheduled to wake up at 1AM to heat water and again at
2:30AM to start bathing, but because I slept very early I woke up very early too and can't
do anything about it so I decided, after a lot of time of thinking and reading some more
hoping it could make me sleep again, bought these foods at the nearest 24/7 food store.

The one  in the front is beef with plain rice and sunnyside up and the one at the back is fried
pork with again rice and sunny side up. I ate the one with broken yoke because I hate keeping
food with broken yokes. BANG!

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she who has been: and and excited !

When: Jan 12th / Wednesday / 08:50 KT

Where: at work

>> How are you feeling?
EXCITED!!!

I can't stop but think of my upcoming house-move. I purchased a unit in Ortigas a year and a half ago and hopefully, we [tenants] can start moving late this February or early in March. I can't really wait.

1. I will be buying new set of appliances.
Refrigerator and desktop computer is a necessity for me. Eventhough I already have a laptop which I have been using for years now, dedsktop would be needed once I moved since I'm planning to work at home.
I love cooking so a refrigerator is a must. I missed cooking for less than five years but I moved, I'll be cooking and storing all the "healthy" food I've been planning to try for years now. A TV is not really a must, since I was able to live without it for year. The desktop will do that for me :D
2. I'm planning to buy a ceiling fan because, even though the AC is already included in the unit, I still enjoy opening my window and let the air [rain] to get in.
3. A washing machine, a stove and a microwave will complete the set.
4. I'll buy a new [wooden folded] table too and at least two comfort chairs. I'll be sending the table and the chair from my apartment now to my mom's since there are usually many people there.
5. Lastly, would be kitchen utensils.


 I am really very excited!!!!

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she who has been: receiving

When: Jan 11 / Wed

Where: apartment

What: money these days

... though not much but they are still money.
Also, I'm excited to more to my next crib in Feb or March since I've been receiving many work-at-home jobs.

I'm so excited!!!

I really think I'll be earning big in this plus the fact that I can still do my full time in the morning and enjoy some times with my friends plus I can still attend seminars and do many things to enhance whatever I needed to be enhance.

I can't wait!!!!
I'm sooooo excited.

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she who has been feeling: excited

When:    Jan 10th / Tues
Where:    at work

>> How are you feeling?

For some odd reasons I think something good is really coming. I have been practicing meditation and this morning I think I really didn't do it well. I tried to do it again some time this morning but I can't seem to concentrate. I tried the walking meditation but I think I have to start walking slowly first. It was difficult since I'm a fast walker [according to my friends or whoever walks with me].

I know something good and wonderful is about to happen or already happening. I can feel it and as time passed by, I'm getting more and more excited.


Thank you. 

she who has been: invited

When: Jan 10 / Tues / 12:14KT
Where: at work, free time

What: invitation

.. to go hiking on the 21st to 22nd to Mt. Batulao, but it would be depending on the weather. My other friends and I were already thinking of going to Bato Spring but hiking sounds more exciting and dreadful to me :D It would be difficult since I sit for long hours but I'll start practicing starting tomorrow. I might start climbing 20th floors of the building to lessen the tension on my legs and knees for the hike.

Also, I bought a new card reader yesterday and it took me 2 hours since I cant get out of the mall after buying it.

dang! I called my client 10 minutes ahead of time.

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she who has been: trying to post

When: Jan 08 / Sun / 6:20AM
Where: mom's house, at kylie's wake

What:
... pictures but unfortunately, didn't have a card reader.

I'm home, for the wake. I arrived at 11:30 last night. I'm thinking of not going to attend the mass because it would be at 1PM and will be entombed at 3PM.

Anyhow, I'm updating this site, downloading meditation videos, checking facebook. People outside are chatting and it rained and might rain some more this morning. I love the rain especially in the morning. 

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she who has been: feeling heavy

When:    Jan 07. / Sat
Where:    Apartment

>> How are you feeling?


I’m feeling heavy.

I’m learning, doing and patiently practicing how to properly meditate; to control my thoughts, to control my physical body, making my mind stronger than my body, to listen to my subconscious mind and know what I truly feel and desire.

First, I think I made a wrong decision of not going home and attend Kylies’s wake. Until this morning, I feel like going but didn’t. I think and feel that I should have and I think and I feel now that mom might be very angry when I come home tonight. Well I hope she understands, cross fingers. So there, I’ll come home tonight.

taken from the cover of my meditation cd

Decided!

Second, I desire and have wanted to receive money. Lots of money. I asked, strongly I believed. I try to believe and try to feel received but through my constant trials, learning and practicing meditation I found out that I doubt. Hugely!

I saw it in my inner thoughts. It’s hard and made of steel. I try to burn it but I subconsciously throw water on it but the fire is still there. Burning under it. I still have hope that I’ll burn “DOUBT” and learn to believe to what I’m capable of.

Acknowledgement and Acceptance


Thank you.

She who has been: reading messages

When: Jan 06 / Fri / 3:10PM

Where: apartment / while exchanging messages with my sis, chiRie

What: message

... for her project.

Also, above is the picture of the message my sister, Chile sent me yesterday afternoon. It says:

Alaina is missing Kylie already. She was trying to wake her up to play.

Alaina is my three-year old niece and a playmate to my 1-year old niece, Kylie.


PS:
I accidentally erased my first two shots for the laundry and books. Anyhow, I decided to take the two pictures of it again. They are as similar as the original.

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She who has been: choosing

When: Jan 6th
Where: apartment, thinking

What: scripture

the book i've been hiding and a crucifix gifted to me by Mhinnie

.. which Bible scripture is suited for Kylie.

The picture was taken from Ecclesiastes Chapter III: It says;

3:1 To every [thing there is] a season, and a time to every
 purpose under the heaven:
3:2 A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a
 time to pluck up [that which is] planted;
3:3 A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down,
 and a time to build up;
3:4 A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a
 time to dance;
3:5 A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones; a
 time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
3:6 A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a
 time to cast away;
3:7 A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence,
 and a time to speak;
3:8 A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a
 time of peace.
3:9 What profit hath he that worketh in that in which he
 laboreth?
3:10 I have seen the labor, which God hath given to the sons of
 men to be exercised in it.
3:11 He hath made every [thing] beautiful in its time: also he
 hath set the world in their heart, so that no man can find out
 the work that God maketh from the beginning to the end.
3:12 I know that [there is] no good in them, but for [a man] to
 rejoice, and to do good in his life.
3:13 And also that every man should eat and drink, and enjoy the
 good of all his labor, it [is] the gift of God.
3:14 I know that, whatever God doeth, it shall be for ever:
 nothing can be added to it, nor any thing taken from it: and
 God doeth [it], that [men] should fear before him.
3:15 That which hath been is now; and that which is to be hath
 already been; and God requireth that which is past.
3:16 And moreover I saw under the sun the place of judgment,
 [that] wickedness [was] there; and the place of righteousness,
 [that] iniquity [was] there.
3:17 I said in my heart, God will judge the righteous and the
 wicked: for [there is] a time there for every purpose and for
 every work.
3:18 I said in my heart concerning the state of the sons of men,
 that God might manifest them, and that they might see that they
 themselves are beasts.
3:19 For that which befalleth the sons of men befalleth beasts;
 even one thing befalleth them: as the one dieth, so dieth the
 other; yes, they have all one breath; so that a man hath no
 pre-eminence above a beast: for all [is] vanity.
3:20 All go to one place; all are of the dust, and all turn to
 dust again.
3:21 Who knoweth the spirit of man that goeth upward, and the
 spirit of the beast that goeth downward to the earth?
3:22 Wherefore I perceive that [there is] nothing better, than
 that a man should rejoice in his own works; for that [is] his
 portion: for who shall bring him to see what shall be after
 him?


There is indeed A TIME FOR EVERYTHING..



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She who has been: trying really hard

... to document things

I have been doing this since last year but very inconsistent. I’ll try to be us consistent as possible this year though. I do it on writing, as in I have a pen and cattleya notes to write it down. I’ll try to update this project as early as possible.

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she who has been: in and out of sickness

When: Jan 05 / Thur / 09: 03AM

Where: work / while working :D

What: chill

travel medkit that i usually bring

I came home early. Then after I did my laundry, I try to do meditation :D

I sat on my bed and planted my back on the wall. When I went too calm and felt sleepy, I laid down with my back still planted on the wall. After an hour or two I started to get chill. As in I felt really cold. I have to cover myself from head to toe with a not-so-thick blanket. When my teeth started chattering, I started dressing up [I sleep on my birthday suit :D ]. I put on my pajama top, jogging pants and socks. I even wore stockings on my hands and arms [since I didn’t have gloves].  Then after a few more minutes and I was still shaking I decided to take medicine then sent a message to my shift manager saying that I might not get to work the next day though I’ll still try. I even put Salonpas and efficascent oil on my back because it ached badly.

I can’t remember what time was it when I started to feel warm again. I just woke up, started undressing myself and turning my fan on.   

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she who has been: weeping

When: Jan 04 / Wed / 1:51AM

Where: Apartment

What: Candle

I woke up at 12:30AM today since I slept at 4 or so yesterday because I wasn’t able to sleep well last night and been suffering from headache the whole morning. When I checked my phone, I received a discount deal which I immediately deleted, an invitation from a friend to go on a weekend-camp on the 21st, an inquiry message from my second sister and a creepy message from my fourth sister.

She said her baby was gone. I asked for an explanation then by this time, she told me that her one-year old baby, my second niece, was truly gone. She was supposed to leave the hospital tomorrow and my mom was already looking for a hospital that can do her heart operation since the hospital she was in has machine for adults, didn’t make it.



green scented candle and a cloth-made rose



She said Khailee was admitted on Jan 1st because her breathing was labored and seemed not well. The day before, she was playing with one of my mom’s medicine bottles. Mom told my sister, Russel to bring her to the hospital; she might accidentally drink the medicine. The hospital doctors did an X-ray and found out that she had a big heart. Mom went home and cooked food since it’s also her birthday.

The message was received last night. She might sent as the message as a group. Honestly, I think she could have made it if mom acts swiftly. She might have delayed it and thought that it was not that serious. The hospital would definitely have given them list of hospital that could have gone the surgery fast. It could have been money. Mom might not have enough and delayed the process. Or they didn’t know that she’ll have an attack or something.

Her mom was lost before she came. She didn’t finish high school and no direction. After years, she came home pregnant on her. She was her mom’s light. Now, we don’t know what might happen to her

There’s many “it could have been..” but now, she’s already gone. Her mom cries. I cry. Our whole family is crying. And we will cry for the rest of our lives because of her. We might have our nieces, might have a nephew and I might have a child on my own but SHE would be especial. She’s a happy child. That’s one thing I’m sure of.

I lighted a green (calm) candle (light) to guide her way and a single (she’s 1 year old) plastic (forever and would never whither) rose beside (her mom, who always watch over her) it.

For Khailee:

May your light always be soft and warm forever.

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she who has been: doing her laundry

When: Jan 03 / Tues / 03:00PM

Where: Apartment, just got home

What: Laundry

I just picked up my laundry before getting in. It’s cloudy outside and might rain early tonight or early tomorrow. I’ll do my undergarments later, maybe after I took a nap and dinner :D

Anyhow, I decided to write and try to post it the next day as much as possible. I’ll start today but the pictures might be late since my reader is not working. I’ll buy a new one before Friday so I could post these articles before the weekend :D

Update:
It’s already raining :D


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she who has been: reading

Where: Apartment; right after I got in

What: Books

the master key system, the power, the secret and the secret scroll

These are the books that I’ll be reading for the next few days. I bought The Secret and The Power early this year, The Secret Scroll was a gift from my girl friend Irish and I just bought The Master Key System today at Shangrila.

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She who has been writing..

 ..many nonsense things for two years.

Good Morning.


I’m writing this at 6:54AM in my apartment on this day; Jan 1st 2012.
This will be my first entry for this year. My goal is this, I’ll be taking pictures and/or write entries daily then post them weekly since I’m pretty much busy but I can find time on weekend or anytime I’m available.







> What IS this?
This will be my 365 project! Yeheeey!!!

> What would be the theme?
As usual, anything that fancy me. It could be something that I just seen on the streets, or something that I notice or something that came up suddenly.

> Why AM I doing it?
Well, since my so-called blog has no real sense of direction, it would be a journal of a any normal human with a normal life and how things unfold in front of her/him.
Also, I'm trying in anyway possible hone my photography. I want it to have purpose :D

> Why should I read it?
I don’t know. I’m merely doing it for myself :D To make me happy I guess :D If you find it interesting then good. Keep reading and leave a comment too if you have time :D

> What should I expect from this site?
Haist! Redundancy?! Expect the unexpected, I guess. Hmm again, this blog is only to entertain myself. There are so many blogs written for others and maybe some, like this one, for themselves too but really, this is only for me, myself and SWHB. Hopefully, it could reflect and see your views, ideas or whatever.

> If its nonsense, why do it? It’s bullshit!
DUH! I know. That’s why I’m doing it and if you’ll continue reading, it means you like reading bullshits, so cut the redundancy and slamming the obvious.


Anyhow, all the pictures here are MINE!!!
I may not be able to watermark all of them but THEY ARE MINE! Fuck head!

I’m territorial and this site is my virtual territory so everything in here is mine. For the pictures that I might post but aren’t mine, I usually link them to the source. Please be dissent enough to email me or link this site when you use any of my entries or pictures.

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